Me & My Weight

☆CW: 130.0 ☆
HW: 190+
LW: current

GW1: 155 - Complete
GW2: 150 - Complete
GW3: 145 - Complete
GW4: 140 - Complete
GW5: 135 - Gained Weight 4/4/12 Complete
GW6: 130 - Complete 8/23/12 Weight Gained Again 10/29/12
GW7: 125 - Running Watch or X-Box Live Account
GW8: 120 - New Tattoo

UGW: 115 - Belly Button Ring!!!!

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ABOUT ME

I have always been obsessed with how I look. I do not know when it started.  I have few memories of my childhood. What I do know is not that great, and whatever happened has shaped me into who I am today.  I cannot change it.  I cannot go back. I don’t think I even want to know what my mind has forgotten. Wishing will not bring me that happiness I was denied. But I am doing what makes me happy now.

I love gymnastics, was a gymnast and am flexible still. Was a cheerleader (Don’t bite me), in high school and college. Have graduated (With my BA) and am thinking of taking acrobatic classes :)  Also considering going back for my Masters in Marketing. They look fun! I love running. Great release for me, a De-stresser if you will.

My biological “mother” (HA!) always called me Fat to my face and emotional abused me. But it is what it is. I am stronger for it today.  I still have issues with her but I am growing stronger and more confident every day.

The more weight I lose the happier and confident I feel in myself, abilities, and self worth.  I would love to be an actress.  Even small stuff :) Just for fun. I do not really expect to make a career out of it.  

I an a nerd, totally! Love HP, Doctor Who, Star Wars, Star Trek, Last Air bender, Sponge bob, Futurama, Archer, South Park.  Basically I am an adult who has retained their childlike enthusiasm.  I think that is because I was forced to grow up to soon.  But as I said, I am who I am.  Slowly I am molding myself into who I envision I want to be. Slowly but surely.

I do not want my past to drag me down forever. i am rising above it. Please feel free to message/ask me anything :) I am always there for others who need someone to talk to.

So ya…basically me in a tiny nut shell.